B e f o r e ...

I used to think getting hurt was something that I

wanted to avoid at all costs. Never wanting to be
that girl who would just believe all the junk guys
would say or promise. And up until my most
recent ex, I didn't really let any guy do that
to me. Or I'd actually leave before I was left
and what not. I had a big hold on what was going
on with my feelings before.

But why was this one different ? Was it cause
I was really in love ? Who even knows. I just
know that I almost gave up all my goals and dreams
just to be with this guy. Like at all costs I would
have just went along with what he wanted to do.
Moving to another country would have just been
a walk in the park for me. I was all for it. I mean,
don't get me wrong, I'm always up for a little adventure
....but a whole different country that didn't speak English ?!
Oh yes, I did ponder the thought.

I guess you could say I was blinded. Blinded by a
life that I thought I wanted. Living it with someone I
thought I wanted to be with. And being the type of
person I thought I could be.

But listen up girls. It doesn't need to be like that.
And for me, it sure as hell wasn't going to be like that.
When you give and give without anything....and
I really mean that, absolutely nothing in return,
then it's time to throw in the towel. Hopefully that
towel hits him in the damn head so that it knocks
some sense into 'em for the next poor soul that has
to put up with him !

So for everyone who wants to know......

I won't ever be that girl again !